Lamotrigine

An anticonvulsant drug used in the treatment of epilepsy and bipolar disorder. For epilepsy it is used to treat partial seizures, primary and secondary tonic-clonic seizures, and seizures associated with Lennox-Gastaut syndrome. Lamotrigine also acts as a mood stabilizer. It is the only anticonvulsant mood stabilizer that treats the depressive as well as the manic phases of bipolar disorders, and it is the first medication since lithium granted FDA-approval for the maintenance treatment of bipolar I. Chemically unrelated to other anticonvulsants, lamotrigine has relatively few side-effects and does not require blood monitoring. Data suggest that lamotrigine is a promising drug for treatment-refractory unipolar depression.

Quite adequately, it also tastes bittersweet when you chew it.

Coward

No doubt about it.

There There

in pitch dark i go walking in your landscape.
broken branches trip me as i speak.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.

there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck.
(don't reach out, don't reach out)
steer away from these rocks
we'd be a walking disaster.
(don't reach out, don't reach out)

just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there.
(there's someone on your shoulder)
just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there.
(there's someone on your shoulder)

there there

why so green and lonely?
heaven sent you to me.

we are accidents
waiting waiting to happen.

we are accidents
waiting waiting to happen.

((C) Thom York)

Empath Seeking Protection

To whom it may concern:
Empath witch on the verge of collapse, too many influences coming in, unable to stop them. Any advice, encouragement or direct help would be greatly appreciated. I've been trying some visualization and working with stones (amethyst) and magnets, but it's not strong enough. Next, going to try blue stones (lapis lazuli, etc.) and more visualization, mostly of grounding.

But I'm at the end of my rope here :( So tired.

Thanks in advance,
Moonhalo.

Questions

But if she needs to want yet doesn't want to need,
If she meets your expectations, but doesn't expect you to meet
If while she's haunted by the past, the future is your phantom
Can ghosts join hands or will they vanish at the deed?

I Want Ice Cream

Soft and sweet and with chocolate fudge on top. Then I can purge happily. It's so much easier to ease my mind that way than having to argue with mom, in her latest attempt to make me feel guilty - again - for the way my siblings treat me and for the fact that I'd rather not stomach it, so I keep away. No, she'd rather have me swallow that crap quietly. Can't anymore, really.

State of Affairs

Visions of angels and gestures of care
Questions unanswered and ugly warfare
Antidepressants, antacids, painkillers,
Too many stressers and not enough thrillers.

By the end of October I will be 30 years old. I've been asked to come up with some presents that I'd like to get from my family. Trouble is, most things I really want, I can't ask for. They either want to give it or they don't, and they don't. So I need to think of alternatives. That led me to thinking about my condition and the things I'd like to get or do in my life. Such as...

- I'd like to learn how to ride a horse.
- I'd like to have some physiotherapy, massages, treatments of any kind that will help with the pains in my knees and my back and improve my physical state in general.
- I'd like to fly to America and spend some time with my own personal mad hare.
- I'd like to go to some nice, quiet place, where the wind blows softly and the trees dance slowly, and just stay there for a while, and breathe.
- I'd like to throw a slumber party for all my friends from around the world.
- I'd like go to a live figure skating event at least once before I die.
- I'd like to feed squirrels in a nice green park somewhere.
- I'd like for someone to put their arms around me and say "sshhhh... it's OK".
- I'd like to get a medal for something. Don't know what.
- I'd like to see some of my work published some day.
- I'd like to learn how to speak Elvish. Sindarin, mostly.
- I'd like to go far, far away and forget about everything for a while.

Including birthdays.